A #Lippie entry from the lovely @DarkJezebelle.

Myth

She was in full opinionated swing as I began to clear up around her, her arms folded, her manner resolute as usual.

“I just don’t get it…”

“What?”

I turned, the empty coffee cups in my hand. I had my back to her now. I opened the tap and the water began to hit the base of the sink. She raised her voice slightly so I could hear her and I heard every word.

“I just don’t buy into the myth that women don’t know when their husband is sleeping with someone else. I think they just lie to themselves because they don’t want to know.”

She was fond of making these big statements in her lazy, southern drawl.
I shut off the tap and stared at the empty cups, not wanting to turn just yet.
Not yet.
I waited for it.

“I’d know if he was fucking someone else. I just would”

Pause. Breathe. Turn.

I looked at her. She is a long leggy woman, tall and elegant, feline, complacent almost in her manner. We were not alike. I am sharper in my manner. Small, petite, shorter, we were never friends who shared clothes.  I looked down at my hands.

“How would you know?”

I placed emphasis on that first word. I was genuinely interested.

“Well I’d smell her on him for a start….”

I glanced up . She wasn’t smiling. She never smiled that much. She just raised her eyebrows to indicate a statement of fact. Her arm released itself from the fold and she reached down, fumbling in her bag. I quietly observed, not yet sure of my response. She produced a lipstick and, with the skill of many years of experience, she deftly removed the shiny lid, twisted it and began to smooth it over her mouth, no mirror required.
Our friendship could be measured out in lipstick stains, on numerous coffee mugs and wine glasses, on my cheek at a party or dinner, on the lips of my husband when she kissed him in a moment of shared friendly intimacy, always in my presence, never for too long.
I gaze at the ‘barely there’ sheen on her lips, a thought developing in my mind.
Her mouth…..that colour ….his mouth…..my mouth.

Had she applied it on the morning of that first unplanned meeting, kissing his mouth as he left? And later in that stolen lunch hour, emboldened by wine, when he pressed against me in that City doorway and he desperately sought my lips with his, my permission, my implied consent, did some of that soft colour transfer from her mouth to mine via his?

Or the next time, as we lay on my sitting room floor, after his hand had found my skin because the underwear I’d deliberately chosen allowed him to do so with such ease. When he traced his finger along my thigh so that I giggled, when he moaned between my legs ‘my God, you’re so wet and swollen’ making me blush. And then come. Was there a faint slick of colour left behind in between my legs that I didn’t notice?

Or that snatched afternoon in his kitchen, when he pressed his cock into my mouth, had she left her mark on him at the tip so that it smeared across my face as I yielded to his insistence? Or was it left there, around the base, where I’d struggled to breathe, eager to impress a new lover?

Or the most recent time, when we didn’t even make it passed the hallway, when he grabbed and pushed, hastily lifting and ripping, fucking me so hard from behind as he reached round and thrust his fingers into my mouth. Did those fingers still have the vestige of their last encounter, the colour from her mouth painted on to mine?

I stared at that mouth. The lipstick was a soft inconspicuous shade. It was probably called something like ‘Illusion’ or ‘Whisper’ or ‘Myth’. Lipstick names making promises that they can never keep.

Still staring I realised her lips were moving. She was talking. She was saying something to me, her arm outstretched.
“Do you want to try it?”
And there lay the lipstick, like a bullet, in the open palm of friendship.

An email submission for #Lippie, from Robert S.

Dubonnet

He had got there a good twenty minutes early.  She had told him they should get a booth in the front, near the window.  It had more character there, she had said, in that narrow space next to the bar.  The booths were more intimate.  They could talk, she had insisted, and the bar staff were close enough that you could order from the booth.  He already had a Martini in front of him and had drunk most of it, another reason to get there early and get a drink ahead.

The bar had a French theme:  Parisian posters on the walls, yellowing posters for Ricard and Dubonnet, and a lit sign for a Bar-Tabac propped in the corner by the door.  The bar staff were young and tattooed, and he looked at his hands around his drink and felt old and weary.

Then, looking out of the window at the street, the sun setting behind the railway, silhouetting palm trees against the horizon, he started to have doubts.  Why had she asked that they meet so early, in the last of the daylight, and asked him to sit near the window? She might want to take a look at him before she came in through the door.  She might already have passed by and decided that the reality did not match the fantasies that they had shared.

It had taken him a long time to persuade her to meet. Each time he had suggested it she had been keen, but then cancelled on him.

I will share the fantasy but not the reality, she had written. I need to be open about my strength and my fragility.

Just one drink, he had replied, and finally she had agreed.  He had let her choose the time and the venue,

He was nervous, and in her last email she had said that she was too. Beyond nervous, verging on terror, she had told him, and he had been surprised.  They had been writing for two weeks, a torrent of emails and texts after that first tentative message on the website.  

They had discussed the most intimate things, personal things: the failure of their marriages, the difficulties of balancing family and career, the difficulty of trying to develop a relationship in what little time they had left over.  He had told her that he was simply unable to offer the commitment required to maintain a romantic relationship, which is why he had resorted to that particular website.  She had agreed with him and their writing had moved on to their desires and fantasies, and now they were explicit in a way that he had never allowed himself to be before.  He had found himself exploring the darker parts of his desires, and she had too.  Now they were on the verge of that fantasy life crossing into reality.

I might not be what you expect, she had written.  I’m not petite.  I’m not a porn star with a hard body.  I’m a middle aged working mother.  I have flaws.’  But he had seen the photos.  She had not lied to him.  Voluptuous was the word she had chosen to describe herself and he discovered that he liked that, liked that she was a natural woman:  no lies, no make up, no surgery, and no enhancements.  He had read the thoughts and fantasies in her writing and he had liked them too.

He finished the last of his Martini and when he put down the glass and looked up, there she was.  He hadn’t heard the door, so lost in his thoughts.  He recognized her at once from her eyes.  She was wearing little make-up, just eyeliner around her hazel eyes, which were wary below strong eyebrows. The only other make-up was dark red lipstick, which contrasted with her pale skin.  Her narrow face was framed by tousled black hair that fell loose across her shoulders.

He found that he was staring at her, and had not spoken.  He pulled himself off the bench and put a hand out towards her in greeting. She looked at his hand and the way he was half standing in the cramped booth, and smiled.

‘Hello,’ he said, an unexpected croak in his voice.

‘Hi,’ she said, her voice soft, and he realized it was the first time he had heard her speak. She took his hand lightly in hers and gave it a gentle squeeze as if in reassurance, and this was their first touch.  He thought that he had not yet smelled her, and not tasted her.

He found his eyes wandering again.  She wore a simple black dress, open at the neck showing cleavage, a tiny edge of red underwear visible on one side. She had told him that she liked lingerie.  She had sent him photographs and he had stared at them.  Even now he could recall each one, and compare them with the woman in front of him.

He was aware of the imbalance: the number of photos she has sent him of herself.  He had only sent her one photo, a conventional portrait without a smile, professionally taken by a mate who was a photographer.  Hers were selfies, the lighting poor and the focus indistinct.  He liked that about them.

‘Can I get you a drink?’ he asked.

‘Just one,’ she said, and gave him a half-smile.  She looked towards the bar and her eyes widened when they landed on the posters and she said: ‘Gin and Dubonnet, please.’

He was watching her lips move, remembering how she had told him how much she liked to kiss: how she enjoyed the give and take, and how it was the beginning and end of everything for her.

He broke his eyes away from her lips and looked towards the bar but the girl behind it had been watching and had heard the order. ‘Two,’ he mouthed at her and she nodded.

She let go of his hand and sat down, and as she bent her knees to slide into the booth he saw that the skirt of her dress was slit up one side.  He caught a glimpse of a black stocking top against the curve of her hip and realized he was staring again, so he focused his gaze on her eyes.

He tried not to look down at the swell of her breasts, and not to think about what she had said about the sensitivity of her nipples.  They were still staring at each other’s eyes, not speaking, when the girl put their drinks in front of them.

She lifted a hand to sweep her hair back, and he caught a glimpse of the nape of her neck, where pale skin glowed against her black hair.  She lowered her hands to the table and wrapped them around her drink, her nails tapping against the glass.  They were painted the same shade of red as her lipstick, almost the same colour as her cocktail.

I like to dig my nails into my lovers back,’ she had told him.

She looked nervous now, that first burst of bravado evaporating.  He looked into her eyes again and she looked down at her drink and raised it to her lips and took a deep pull on it.

‘So,’ she said. ‘Does the reality live up to the fantasy?’

‘Yes,’ he said. ‘You are exactly as I imagined you.  What about me? You’ve only seen one photo.’

She shrugged.  ‘It’s different for me.  Your words are what attracted me.  Plus, you didn’t try too hard to impress.  I was worried that it might spoil it, us meeting.  We couldn’t be as open with each other as when we were anonymous.  I didn’t want reality to kill the fantasy.’

‘Fiction is the lie through which we tell the truth,’ he said, and he liked that it made her smile.

He saw her eyes soften, and he felt the connection they had made in their writing pass between them again across the table.

He stood up quickly, leaned across the table and kissed her.  She resisted at first, her eyes open and darting sideways, aware of the public place.  He put his hand behind her head and pulled her mouth towards his, and then he inhaled her, drank her in, and tasted her.

The story below is an entry for my Lippie competition, by @BilliousOne.

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I came to this erotica competition via a friend and got to thinking: would it be crazy to have a go myself? The fact that I haven’t written any erotica longer than a seventeen syllable Haiku seemed a minor impediment at the time, as did the fact that I am male and this is driven by lipstick of all things! So I contacted Charlie and she came up with “Runway Hit”. Being male I immediately thought of planes and the smell of burning fuel rather than the fashion show type of runway that was no doubt in the mind of the mysterious lipstick namer (now there’s a job!). I decided to re-locate an old fantasy. Here goes:

Runway Hit

She passed through the endless steel lined tunnels and walkways of Terminal 4 following signs for the Hilton Hotel, heels clicking, her summer dress swaying from side to side slightly as she walked. She’d nearly stayed at home, safe in an environment she could control; she’d nearly turned back at Paddington, so hesitant the platform attendant had pointed out the Heathrow Express was leaving; she’d nearly turned back when it arrived at Terminal 4. Yet here she was, walking down the last tunnel into the Hotel for what felt like strangest of meetings with a man she had never met; a man to whom she had never even spoken; a man who she knew full well was going to bend her over a chair and spank her.

They had met on social media, part of an informal network of people who shared erotic short stories, via each other’s blogs and websites. Hers were almost covertly sexual, beautifully crafted with clever metaphors and twists; his darker, more direct and filled with tales of domination and submission. At some point, she forgot quite why, they had started having private direct messaging conversations alongside their public blog exchanges.

A week earlier while relaxing at home, chatting with several people on-line as she liked to do, their communication had taken a strange and, for her at least, unintended path:

Her: I read a blog that described a spanking today. She made it sound so real, so intensely sensual

Him: Interesting. Have you ever been spanked? 

Her: Not really, I mean a bit but not so that it really hurt

Him: Would you like to be spanked. Does the idea of it interest you?

Her: Maybe. I’m not sure. I think the loss of control part might be fun. Would you like to spank me? 

After pressing send she had jumped up in horror, desperate to un-send a message that had been meant as rhetorical, but read more like an invitation.

Him. Yes. I would like that very much but I am in Paris and you are in London

Her: Well thank heavens for that then! I’m safe 

Him: But do you want to be?

She had invented a domestic crisis of some sort and ended the conversation, embarrassed. Yet despite herself she had been strangely aroused by the idea and it had stayed with her until two days later when an email had pinged into her inbox. Without any preamble it gave her an exact day and time to be at the Heathrow Hilton Hotel, where she was to wait further instructions. She was affronted by the email on so many levels; the assumption that she would ever consider meeting a strange man in a hotel; the assumption that she could just leave her business on a day of his choosing; the dictatorial way it was worded. She had written a reply expressing her disgust and severing their relationship but had let the cursor hover over send, unable to quite overcome the delicious taste of excitement, spiced with just the right amount of fear. In the end her reply had simply said: “Yes”.

As she turned into the cavernous but sparsely populated hotel lobby she heard a series of messages arrive in her phone. She knew she was already beyond the point where turning back was possible. Following the instructions (HIS instructions!) she took the lift to the twelfth floor and found room 1208. As she knew it would be, the door was slightly ajar. It was a suite! Shocked that he had both flown from Paris and rented a suite for this short meeting she looked around. There was a long glass window with an almost panoramic view of the runways, a jumbo jet lumbering into the sky on one while a smaller plane landed on the other. The suite was smartly furnished, all beiges and stone colours but, in the manner of hotels, was somewhat soulless. She nervously glanced at the one discordant note in the layout. A large curved leather arm chair had been quite deliberately positioned in the centre of the room facing the window, on its seat a pillow and a soft black blindfold.

Taking deep breaths to steady her nerves she moved to the bed room, removed her dress and folded it onto the bed. Perhaps because it all seemed so unreal that this could even be happening, she felt detached, as if observing someone else. That someone else looked at herself in the mirror and, seeing how her underwear accentuated the curves, the rises and falls, of her body, drew confidence from its still smooth skin and gym toned form. Moving back into the main room she stood behind the chair and put on the blindfold, defiantly leaving a small gap at the bottom. She leant over the cold leather of the chair, long stockinged legs stretched out behind, and rested her elbows on the pillow. She waited. She could feel her heart beating faster than normal, as if before a gym session. All she could hear was her breathing, rapid but shallow, and the muffled sounds of aircraft taking off and landing. She counted four aircraft landings while she waited and then jumped as the click of the door announced his arrival.

She heard him remove his suit jacket and hang it on a dining chair, sensed his approach and then glimpsed charcoal suited ankles and immaculate black shoes. Now she was breathing fast, the flow of adrenaline heightening her senses. Something that had seemed interesting as a vague fantasy suddenly seemed horribly real. She felt his hand rest on the small of her back. The hand seemed reassuring and she sensed that he wanted her to know she was safe. Her breathing slowed a little. But the character of his touch changed, strengthened. She pushed herself up slightly but met firm resistance, realising that now the hand was holding her down, pushing her against the leather. She heard the smack first, a loud intrusive sound, and then felt the heat across her bottom. She gasped more in surprise than pain, but smack followed smack, hard and fast, each more painful than the last. He paused at twenty, the room silent again but for her rapid breathing, almost panting as she struggled to deal with the surge of sensations flooding through her body. His hand returned with more force. She felt herself fighting a losing battle to control her reactions, gasping with each blow, pushing against the hand holding her down. But she was feeling other reactions. A combination of his powerful, unseen presence, the heat spreading from her bottom and the way each blow forced her clitoris down hard onto the back of the chair was making her hot and wet. The spanking seemed endless. Her whole world had reduced to the small space they occupied and that space was full of heat and pain. Just as the safe-word he had given her forced its way into her consciousness, he stopped. The downwards pressure of his hand was released and became once again a light reassuring touch. For maybe one minute maybe ten, he just stood there with his hand resting gently on her back while she fought to regain control of herself. He spoke for the first time, just two words: “well done”, and, retrieving his suit jacket, he was gone, the door closing with a soft click behind him.

Needing to let loose a reservoir of tension and nervous energy she pushed one hand into her wet panties, stroking fast while the other rubbed and squeezed her hot, sore bottom, reviving the sensations of the spanking. She came fast and hard, slipping to the floor as she did so. Dazed, she gathered herself together and stood under a hot shower in the suite’s beautiful bathroom, at one point shaking uncontrollably in a release of pure emotion. Feeling better, in fact feeling beautifully calm and relaxed, floaty even, she dressed and, pulling the door of the suite closed behind her, took the lift down to the lobby.

His last message had said: “If you feel the need to talk about it afterwards, I shall be in the lobby bar by the piano”. She spotted him immediately, long legs folded, drink on the table, newspaper in hand. She had fully intended to talk to him; after all they had never met, never even spoken. But something stopped her. Maybe this was how their relationship was meant to be: a virtual, social media relationship, carried on in chatrooms and blogs; knowing each other intimately and yet not at all. As she approached he looked up, eyes staring straight into hers, eyebrows raised slightly in enquiry. She held his gaze and, confident now she was doing the right thing, offered him a quiet smile and a small nod and walked on, heading back into the airport’s endless tunnels.

The story below is an entry for my Lippie competition, by the wonderful @chiaroscuro.

Rebel

She plays pinball and she feeds the jukebox. She’s done this for going on for an hour. A pound in the jukebox, careful, lip-biting, brow-furrowing deliberation, then walking but subtly dancing to herself back to the pinball machine. A pound in there and she plays and plays.

And it’s a constant effort to not look at her.

Nothing about her demeanour suggests that she’s noticed me, she seems totally, joyously unselfconscious. The pub is sparsely populated. A few old soaks drinking silently together. They’d be here alone, if they had to be. A couple of students from the university drinking the strongest cider they sell. Me, waiting for a perennially late friend. And her. And her.

Pretty and slight and pixieish. Jeans, an old t-shirt that she could fit into three times over, some dainty little flats that just make her seem smaller, no makeup. An absence of effort appears to have gone into her look but she is utterly, intoxicatingly at home with it.

I pretend to concentrate on some pointless smartphone game but i’m just tapping a blank screen. She stands, one foot on top of the other, toes turned in, in front of the screen as she, yet again, chooses the soundtrack to our afternoon.

Her fingers start pressing the buttons quickly, decisively. She’s hit a rich seam and a heartbeat later, the jangly, jagged sound of early Bowie floods the bar. Grinning to herself, she walks back to the pinball machine and plays, her hips flicking in sympathy with the flippers.

I watch her moving, more intently now that she’s so thoroughly absorbed. The hips, obviously, the t-shirt draped over them. But the line of her bowed head, her exposed neck. I imagine my hands, my lips on her. I imagine taking a fistful of that t-shirt and pulling her close, bending to kiss her before even knowing her name, before even hearing her voice. I imagine pulling her jeans down and taking her over the pinball machine. I imagine the feel of her lips on me, pulling me deeper into her. I imagine the taste of her and how her hands would feel knotted tightly in my messy hair.

I down my drink. Not because I want to, but because I want an easy excuse to talk to her. As I approach I hear her singing quietly to herself…

“…torn your dress
Rebel rebel, your face is a mess
Dumdeedumdee, how could they know
Hot tramp, I love you so…”

I pause as I pass her, timing my line so she can hold the ball in a flipper.

“Excuse me, could I buy you a drink?”

She frowns, ever so slightly.

“No, you’re alright. thanks though.”

I buy my beer and head back to my table. But it’s changed, she knows that she’s being observed and she’s still, her hips aren’t moving, suddenly conscious of herself. I’ve ruined it. My friend arrives and I’m grateful for his presence. We talk of work and sport and meaningless stuff.  Soon, I look up and she’s left, her half-finished beer next to the pinball table.